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poop.

2010-10-25T03:53:00.001-07:00

I'nm feeling so under the weather today. Don't exactly know the other cause to this feeling, however, I'm still mourning over the loss of my one and only favorite teacher, Mr. Charles Yeo. He was my P.E teacher from primary 4-6; the one who taught me to dribble a ball, the one who taught me to kick a soccer ball, the one who trained the girls basketball team to a inter-school, inter-district and inter-state level. He died on 16 october 2010 from a stroke, at the age of 75.

I still can't figure out what I'm sad about either..

The 50 big questions.

2010-10-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

My English is deteriorating at a fast rate and I can't keep up with these changes. Oh dear. The only remedy I have in mind is to blog more often with topics based on a set of given questions - just like bff. So to kick things off, my topic for today is based on Question 50:

Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

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Decisions are made every hour, every day, every month and every year. We decide what we want for breakfast, when we'd like to travel, whether to take up a job offer and so on. There is no one point in life where 'decision' does not exist. What do we mean by 'decision' - A decision is the "act or process of deciding; determination, as of a question or doubt, by making a judgment."

Without a decision we'd starve to death, we'd never travel, we would not experience career developments.

Our parents make decisions for us from the day we're born up until the day they decide that we're old enough to make our own decisions. Unfortunately, my parents still make decisions for me and I am 5 months away from turning 24. Regardless of age I believe our parents will always have a 10% opinion toward the decisions we make. However; in the last few months, I have been making decisions based on my own judgement and I have not once looked back and regretted. I'm proud of the decision I made and it's brought me that step closer to being a full fledged independent young lady.

When comes petty matters like where to dine for the evening or what time to meet, I leave these decisions to family, bf and friends.

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GAWD. Mental block AGAIN. I hope my English improves over the period of 50 questions an hope it goes back to the Level it once was. lulz. How embawassing for an ABC to have bad Engrish.

Ending off this post with 2 pictures to give this blog a little bit more colour.

-bff and I doing fei2 assignment for him lulz. where the eff can you find such good friends.

-the first time ever to metros over a year. diu.

The important 15.

2010-09-20T07:52:00.000-07:00

I randomly stumbled across an interesting excerpt and wish to share it :)

15 things you probably never knew or thought about..

1. At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you recieved. Forget the rude remarks.
14. Always tell soemone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

#15 - If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

YOU guys make my life that much more joyful. I love you, each and every one of you, and you know who you are :)

Wishlist.

2010-08-28T17:11:00.000-07:00

Wishlist for the month:

1) Savings Plan to come into effect as of 9/9/10 - first pay!

Wishlist:

1) Flat screen tv - can't think of the technical term. sorreh!
2) New car
3) First home
4) AX Watch I've had my eye on for so LONG
5) iPhone 4

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Right now, all I wish for is a healthy looking savings account after the deposit of my first pay cheque. I have set myself a goal of saving $xx,xxx over 6 months and believe it is attainable if sacrifices are made. Definitely possible.

Yawn. It's 821am - SLEEP!

some people make me sick.

2010-08-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

Some people make me so sick.

End of story.

2010-08-10T22:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so fucking tired of YOUR shit.

the job appn.

2010-08-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

So yeah;

Job application to ________ has been so positive thus far. Second round of interview took place midday yesterday and received a call three hours later to invite me back for a psychometric assessment.

Boy did that assessment live up to its name. I hell stressed over that shit all night, taking practice tests online in hopes of boosting my 'common sense' levels hah. Lost an ample amount of sleep because I kept replaying questions in my head. So yep, it fucked me over in terms of alertness BUT! With or without the practice, I raped it good today. It was, in all seriousness, the easiest test I have ever taken in my life. Grammar, accuracy and numeracy were tested today with just 8 minutes to complete each set. I took a personality computer test which fucked me over because.. it just did.

Anyway.. I'm hoping this is the FINAL stage of testings and what-not; kind of sick of having to dress up for it and doing preparations as well as being crazily anxious about the interview. In my understanding they have filtered as many as 15 applications down to the handful that were chosen to proceed to the 2nd round and then to the testing phase. Fingers crossed! Hoping to be the lucky girl with the golden ticket.

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on a side note

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Some people just annoy me to great lengths.

Let me put it out there:

People who find the need to brag about themselves on so many levels is fucking annoying and should be shot. Seriously. *bang*

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On a happier note -

I cleaned my room. yay.

2010-08-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

SO! I pasted the blog link of SG most "show-offy not-so-rich girl-dating-rich-guy" to Vino and boy did we have a good time pissing ourselves off.

Anyway, in most of her pictures she showed photos of her bf's lambo & ferrari. I cbf detailing the entire contents of her blog nor am I bothered to regurgitate the conversation vino and I had, but read the excerpt below:

Vino™ says:
at least beta than kev la
no ferrari
bt ferrari jacket
ferrari cap
ferrari helmet
HAHAHA
COCK
. «× jAcQue ×» . says:
LOLL
im genuinely laughing here!
LOLOLOL

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funny.

mindset.

2010-07-19T09:06:00.000-07:00

I will be applying for my Australian Citizenship tomorrow.

Why?

Because it'll take me to a lot of great places; the greater places are only ever achieved through that one residency status and determination.

Lets see how far I can go.

Setting an optimistic mindset; pulling myself out of this rut cos' the only way we can ever excel is by taking that first step past our comfort zones.

hotties. p h e w i t~

2010-07-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

I fell in 'love' with Taecyeon of 2pm the moment i saw the below clip.

also, what better way to get motivated to exercise right? :D
typical slim/petite asians. fucks sake. what planet am I from?

money :(

2010-07-18T07:52:00.000-07:00

Money makes the world go round. They say happiness can't be bought. Bullshit.Money is power. Power is money. No money; no talk.

I don't earn enough :(

Germany OH MY fuck.

2010-06-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

I will be going to bed a HAPPY young lady because:

Germany 4 : 1 England

Oh Germany. I has sumsing for Germany ;)

GERMANY

OH! THEY JUST TOOK THEIR SHIRTS OFF~

ohh

2010-06-21T03:00:00.000-07:00

my bff is in love and her boyfriend should be arriving Perth any minute now ... ;)

simple & precise.

2010-06-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

A girl should be two things:

Classy and fabulous

- Coco Chanel

im not just chinese

2010-06-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

Only a couple of nights ago my mum told me that my grandma; i.e. her mum; was sino-kadazan! That means .. Her dad was Chinese and her mum was kadazan who learnt to speak only hakka!

WOWZ~

And this whole time I had thought I was pure Chinese. Just Chinese y'know.

WOWS. Although I will never live the dream to have mixed children (caucasian asian) I will, however, die knowing my true ethnicity/heritage whatev' you call it.

When I asked my mum why she never told me; she said she didn't even know until last week when her aunty told her that her Wai Poh was KADAZAN ahahahah.

LOL WTF. Mum got lied to about her blood line.

Anyway.

I'll sleep well tonight.

Ps: had the biggest fucked up dream last night.

no to canada for another year.

2010-06-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

So I initially had plans to visit mum's family in Toronto this coming December to experience a white Christmas and a Canadian New Year.

Unfortunately these plans have been put on hold as the cheapest airfare found to date is $3,053!

For $3,053 I can buy myself:

1 x return ticket from Perth to KL
1 x one way ticket from KL to Taipei
1 x one way ticket from Taipei to KK
1 x one way ticket from KK to KL
7 x nights in a Taipei hotel
7 x nights in a KL hotel
- spending money

& still have change left over! LOL.

The rellies can visit me either here in Perth or I'll see them in KK.

Hah.

Mei you chiennnnn

bold move, my friend

2010-06-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

I have a friend who just shut down their blog of 4 years; a blog that accounted for their day-to-day feelings and events which contains a shit load of effort and time - all DELETED/REMOVED/shifted-to-another-url with just one simple click of the mouse.

Bold move, my friend. Bold move.

It isn't always easy to say goodbye to our pasts - our blogs embody so much good and so much bad that sometimes its a matter of tossing a coin to make the decision of cutting off our old ways.

I deleted one of my blogs. Stupid. But it had to be done. There was so much in it that I couldn't risk other people seeing. So I said goodbye to it forever.

There is still another account lingering somewhere in this cyber world which I cannot part ways with. Hasn't been updated since 2006 but sure holds a lot of fond memories.

Inhumane.

2010-06-10T21:22:00.000-07:00

It isn't in my nature to wish bad things upon people UNLESS the reasons are severe. Saggy-skinned 54-year old Brazilian man should be repeatedly raped if jailed for 30 years. Hope dicks of all sizes will penetrate and tear his rear end and down his throat for the torment he has caused his two daughters.

Read THIS for more

On a lighter and much happier note! THE FIFA WORLD CUP IS FINALLY HERE! Can't wait to stare intensely at the TV screen and shove microwaved butter popcorn in my mouth and skip toilet breaks ALL IN THE NAME OF SOCCER!

Alecia's birthday dinner with her close friends has been cancelled by her royal highness - she's come down with the flu and have portfolios due Monday~ SAD - BUT! We have rescheduled it for Friday next week.

that is all. tata

us asians and flowers

2010-06-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

I don't know if it has ever occurred to any teenaged or mid-20 Asian person before but like ..

WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH US AND POSING WITH FLOWERS AND THEN POSTING IT AS OUR DISPLAY PICTURE. ROFL!

I don't get it! We're so phased with pretty flowers BUT! BUTTTTTT!!!!! Has it ever struck you that the majority of Asian homes have shitty gardens with dying or no plants at all? hmm.. something to think about!

Ahhh. Just food for thought :P

a shitty long weekend..

2010-06-07T08:57:00.000-07:00

So the long weekends are deemed to be the most anticipated 'short' holidays in a working year. As much as I had anticipated this long Foundation day weekend, it turned out to be quite boring and uneventful.

It might sound a little bit unfair to say that it was uneventful because it was some what eventful on the 'family' side of things. My relatives from KK arrived in Perth last Wednesday to make their first appearance since the Immigration department granted them their PR's. We had dinner together on Friday night at our usual family spot, Regal on Roe, followed by a small family gathering at the Chai's crib. The food was great and there is no denying that the family gossip was goooood - it totally woke up my brain cells.

Unfortunately babe had to work on the Sunday which kinda sucked but hey I got to do a little bit of policy studying which I had been delaying since January. Hah.

This week will be a packed one:

Movies Tuesday night with Mum & Belinda, big ass party at my house for mums birthday, Dinner with Alecia on Thursday or Friday for her 23rd birthday & Ralphs birthday on Saturday night.

So many birthdays this week. Mum & Alecia were both born on the 9th. How special. The two most important women in my life, celebrate the same birth date.

NOT looking forward to Thursday at all - mum is throwing me outside of my boundaries and bringing me to this fucking forum/update shit that requires you to mingle with all the other finance fucktards out there and all that bla bla bla. I hate that shit and quite honestly, i'd chuck a sicky if I could so I'm hoping I come down with the flu this Wednesday. Doh.

Anyway. Don't know what else to blog - nightttttttt.

friends.

2010-06-06T00:13:00.000-07:00

I came across S.C's fb status last night and it said:

"thinks it's time to burn some bridges. these so called "friendships" are pissing me off."

So I'm not the only one who dwells upon my fb friends list and waste time thinking of who to keep and who to delete forever.

if only in life, it was as simple as to "drag & drop" our friends into the trash bin like how its so easily done on fb or even on the desktop of our computers.

I constantly question myself: "who are the ones that matter?"

Friends are categorized according to their relationships with us; the hi's and byes, the work friends, uni friends, xclass mates, family friends and those friends we learn to love and treat as family.

There are those people out their who commonly brand themselves "good friends" when in fact, behind closed doors, are bitter jealous individuals who loathe to see you happy in life. Rather than listen to what you have to say, they'll speak over you and constantly rave on and on about themselves. It's sad, but situations like these happen. I have seen one person talk about their achievements and then being cut off by a rude obnoxious green eyed monster who raved on about how good at shit they were.

fuck off.

Through my life as a high school and uni student, i have seen these monsters ruin the friendship between two or more people and even, the boyfriend/girlfriend relationships of my own friends. Like most normal people, I am a strong believer of Karma. Bad things may not happen to these monsters right away, but these evil/bad things do accumulate and will surprise them in the future. Let us see whose the one laughing.

But of course I am fortunate to have friends who turn my nights into days and evolve from friends to family. I'll drink to that.

PSSSSST!

2010-05-27T02:18:00.001-07:00

I have a MAJOR not-so-secretive crush on......

TAECYEON of 2pm!

How can I say NO to this face? - dro o o o o l l l ll l l

Move over Ron Ng, T.O.P, Rain & Lee Hom.. I need more space to accommodate Mr. Taecyeon.

/concussion.

oh..oh..oh..oh my god.

2010-05-26T00:07:00.001-07:00

Haven't blogged in a couple of days nor have I had the drive to blog lately *le sigh. I have been pre-occupied with work and feeling the end-of-day tiredness, trying to spend quality time with my mr. man as well as trying to cope mentally with all the work stress surrounding my "career" - I say this because I see my parents every single hour of the week, except for when I sleep.

I have been wanting to catch up with my friends but I have been too tired (mentally, again) to make the effort to drive all the way to the South to see them. It's a long drive and as Australia puts it "Don't drive if you're tired."

I have a good 75+ years ahead of me which I'd like to enjoy. hah.

Anyway one of the most shocking news I have come across this year would be the following story:

the beast & his horn.

(*source; the west australian)

smile.

2010-05-20T23:07:00.001-07:00

If you're having a bad day then please cheer up :)

stomach ache blues.

2010-05-18T06:49:00.000-07:00

PERIOD PAIN PLEASE GO AWAY.

The first in a long time; the pain is excruciating even though it has been 6 hours since I popped a panadol and hoped for it to go away.

I literally crouched in pain :( it's like my kidney burst internally.

:(

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Bapa & Mami baru berlepas ke melb.
-i tried my best in malay.

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Frankie is having his birthday this Saturday and I'm still contemplating on whether or not to attend it. Half says "GO & GET CRUNK" the other says "Don't leave the house empty."

I'm pretty sure I will come to a reasonable decision by Friday night. I haven't partied with that gang in over a year and honestly, I do miss the hardcoreness though; but I know to be sensible and look after myself. I don't want to be diagnosed with liver failure and be prescribed harsh medication to battle my "illness"

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I miss being 5. I miss being in primary school. I miss being in highschool. I miss being in uni. I miss having the life of a student. period.

My party ways are slowly coming to an end. A sad end. The things I once looked forward to doing no longer satisfy my hunger for hardcore enjoyment/leisure. In fact, I'm not 23. I'm 32 - loving late night movies in the comfort of my own home sipping on a hot mug of tea whilst cuddling up to my mr. man.

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ciao.

2010-04-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

I said that I wouldn't blog for a while, but damn all I feel like saying is:

nothing tastes better than being skinny.

hello.

2010-04-05T03:00:00.001-07:00

A beautiful day is one where the sun hides behind the clouds and the clouds dominate the blue sky and it looks like God is about to piss on each of the living creatures in which he created.

This is my definition of a beautiful day.

Anyway..

NOT going to blog for a while :)